| i guess this would be the appropriate place to rant |
[17 Aug 2007|02:29pm] |
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Its been a while. But I am feeling so frustrated right now, I need to rant. So, my vacay to the Keys was anything but. Some freak back spasm sent me to the ER and home the next day. But I needed to rest and rest I did. As much as it sucked, I accepted it for what it was. But then just to kick me when I was down, my car window cost 300 hundred dollars to repair, there goes a two week paycheck. The doctors in Melbourne wasnt much help, prescribed more medicine which wasnt much help but still I tried to see some good in it, that I got to spend some quality time with my family. So I start to feel better and go out but then starting last Sunday or Monday, I start to feel so tired all the time (by this time im off all the meds), feel nausea and just really sick, like all i want to do is be in bed and like everything is a dream. I just write it off as something small that will go away, but every day it just keeps getting worse. I tried to fight it but yesterday I gave in and went to a THIRD doctor to find out whats wrong with me now. She has no idea, but thinks its weird that i have such an increased heart rate and everything. She thinks on top of whatever else happened on vacay with my back, that I have mono. Okay, wtf. I just want to feel better. There is nothing worse than days and days of constant sickness. Im eating fruits and veggies and trying so hard to pull myself out of this but nothing works. So today I wait and wait for her to call me back with the results of my blood test. At 215 i decide to call her and guess what time her office closes on a Friday? TWO! AHHHHHHHH. I just want to know whats wrong with me so I can get better. Now what do I do all weekend?????????????????????????????????????????
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| Reality Bites: so indicative to real life. |
[13 May 2007|08:05pm] |
Do you find me attractive, sitting here, eating brownies?
You do. You're strangely attracted to me right now.
You're oddly, oddly attracted to me.
It turns you on, doesn't it? You like to watch, don't you?
I want first kisses, I want passion all the way through.
Do I look like a pirate to you?
"Hello, you've reached the winter of our discontent."
" So I take pleasure in the details. You know... a quarter-pounder with cheese, those are good, the sky about ten minutes before it starts to rain, the moment where your laughter become a cackle..." "At the beep please leave your name, number and a brief justification for the ontological necessity of modern man's existential dilemma and we'll get back to you."
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| soundtrack of my life. |
[19 Apr 2007|01:08pm] |
The tragic events at a school states away, feel strangley close to home. Its been getting me pretty down lately thinking about all the family member, friends and loved ones who lost someone.
Its in times like these when I realize the true power of family, friendship, relationships and just how precious and random life can be. Everyone uses the expression "live in the moment" but sometimes it takes something so tragic to truely grasp the importance of such words.
So now, as I prepare for the next few days of studying for exams, Im taking time to truly appreciate life. Plain and simple.
Today, my advertising professor and roomate suprised me. First my teacher, who I spent the whole semester despising, came out with a long speech about how grades dont matter and a heartwarming story about his grandfather and some starfish. It probably wont make sense to anyone else. But he really made me think about how I'm viewing life and taught me that where you least expect it, there is compassion and understanding.
Then my roomate walked into the apartment today with a little bag in her hand. It had foundation and eyeliner in it. I had left a note on the mirror saying that he dog got to my foundation again (but there was nothing more than bite marks on it). She felt so bad about it and about not asking me if i wanted the bigger room when Jackie moves out that she said she was soo upset last night and went out and brought me eyeliner and foundation to make up for it. So we talked things out while we did the dishes together. Here is a girl, finally reaching out in her own way to have a friend, or at least a happy roomate. People can always suprise you.
Last night at work, we had this completly drunk hobo come in and ask to see a movie for free, just so he could laugh again. He processed to ask my manager if I was pretty and when she replied yes, asked her if he had a chance with me. It was creepy to say the least, but I actually feel bad about getting scared. This was just a guy without the advantages that life has given me. Again, another remind of just how lucky I am.
In other news, ROSE emailed me, and put a smile on my face. I miss that bizzle and really admire how she lives her life, by no one elses standards but her own. :)
AND
I will leave you with this
Postal Service: Nothing Better. Great Song. Check it:
Will someone please call a surgeon
Who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart
That you're deserting for better company
I can't accept that it's over...
And I will block the door like a goalie tending the net
In the third quarter of a tied-game rivalry
So just say how to make it right
And I swear I'll do my best to comply
Tell me am I right to think that there could be nothing better
Than making you my bride and slowly growing old together?
I feel i must interject here...
You're getting carried away feeling sorry for yourself
With these revisions and gaps in history
So let me help you remember.
I've made charts and graphs that should finally make it clear.
I've prepared a lecture on why I have to leave
So please back away and let me go
I can't my darling I love you so...
But oh, oh...
Tell me am I right to think that there could be nothing better
Than making you my bride and slowly growing old together?
Don't you feed me lies about some idealistic future
Your heart won't heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures
I know that I have made mistakes and I swear
I'll never wrong you again
You've got a lure I can't deny,
But you've had your chance so say goodbye
Say goodbye
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| Summmmer Plllannns. |
[08 Apr 2007|10:21pm] |
Me and Melbourne: April 28th to May 20th. Three weeks in the bourne, the rest in Tally-ho and hopefully The Keys.
Need to save up for greater adventures next summer.
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| dont let the sun go down on me. |
[29 Mar 2007|10:35pm] |
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Its a great feeling knowing more about the world around you, and in turn knowing yourself a little bit better.
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| Mint Car. Thank you The Cure. |
[28 Mar 2007|07:09pm] |
The sun is up, Im so happy I could scream
and theres no where else in the world id rather be
than here with you its perfect
its all ive ever wanted
I really dont think it gets any better than this
vanilla smile and a gorgoeus strawberry kiss
Say we'll always be like this
the two of us together
and we'll always be like this, forever and ever and ever.
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| where the soul meets body. |
[26 Mar 2007|01:23pm] |
Yesterday I played hookey from work and went to Mexico Beach with Jacob and his familia. It was his little cousins birthday party and we rode jet skis and played in the park. And of course I turned lobster. Aloe Vera is my best friend right now.
Jacob has more cousins than I have people in my whole family tree. I'm envious of the closeness they all share, and wish I had my sister here with me.
(Charlotte: Move to Tallahassee.)
Last week was study central with four tests, a paper and big assignment. Now that its all over all I really have left are a few papers and finals. One month until SUMMER! Speaking of which, I have no idea as of yet my summer plans. I know Im doing Stats Summer C, but I have May and June to do as I please. I have no idea what Im doing for my birthday, but we all need to decide about the Summer Birthday Bash and about the Keys pretty soon!
Off to tend to my lobster-like body. I miss you all.
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| Give them nothing, but take from them everything. |
[09 Mar 2007|12:38pm] |
I was accepted to the college of communication... PUBLIC RELATIONS!!!!!!
I figured that is as good a news as any to bring a little lj back in my life. I had to apply in Febuary to be a part of the college of communications since it is a limited access major. There are several sub sections of the college available to apply to. Advertising, PR and Media Production are the three hardest to get in to.I think they only take about 30-40 for PR out of the 300 that got accepted, and more that applied.
Awkwardly Tall PR, here I come!
Actually, my goal now is to do PR for an independent film company, hence minoring in film. Everything is starting to come together nicely.
In other news, Spring Break was a fabulous time. Me and j-money (for char- a thousand dollars in jmoney ) went to the bourne. We hit up IOA for my sisters birthday and just had a great time chillaxing. Jacob got to see the Melbourne hot spots... aka the mall parking lot. :)
Last night I started back at work and we are in for one busy weekend. Ohh those Spartans.
Movie Reviews
-Zodiac: Excellent Movie. Every single actor gave an outstanding performance, it had me (literally) on the edge of my seat the entire movie.
-The Decent: Kickass asian + dark caves + horrible dialouge and character development= scared the hell out of me
-300: So many kinds of amazing. Studying film really gives you a greater appreciation for it. Spot on Sound, Editing, Color, Lighting, Mise-en-scence, Acting. Must see.
-Human Nature: Really weird movie by the director of The Science of Sleep and Eternal Sunshine, I strangely enjoyed it.
- Lie with Me: An indie film and borderline porno, nothing special.
Off to take on the day before working away the night.
I do believe it is time to get a little update out of everyone... please ?
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[24 Nov 2006|11:08pm] |
Are you this fleeting?
Old age is just aroung the bend, I can't wait to look grey.
I'll sit and wonder of every love that could have been,
if only i could have thought of something charming to say.
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| Imagine... |
[05 Oct 2006|10:43pm] |
If you were a character in Amelie, how would the narrator describe you? (likes and dislikes).
If you havent seen it, go see it. If you have, you know what Im saying.
.... I looooved it. =)
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| thats a peculiar looking pineapple!?! |
[27 Sep 2006|11:35am] |
This month, bertha really took its toll on me. It was bound to happen sometime. But, all its well again.
I feel like Im busy all the time, when I really only work like twenty hours a week now. But those twenty hours are pretty fun at least. We're starting a combo competition, basically the more combos you sell the more points you get and then you get to use those points to get prizes. Plus, we are in a competition with every other regal theater for combos and if we get to first place our gm gets 10,000 dollars!! She said if we get to first, she will have a huge party for all of us and we have been number 2 several times. So from now on, even if a customer asks for a water cup, im going for the combo!! This should make work a little more interesting. Ohh the world of movie theater.
The guy that used to like me, Jacobs friend, Joey is making a movie. Last night I went to Fun Station (miniture Andretti, I swear) and helped film and such. It was a good time. This kid John in my film class, also works with us, and I guess everyone thinks he likes me. I lost my ball in miniture golf and he literally almost swam through the disease infested water to get it and then when i hit it in the bushes, he uprooted a plant to find it. Strange, strange, strange.
School has been pretty good so far. I got a 96 on my first bio test. =) =).
Candase has been driving me crazy lately. Is it possible to have PMS 24/7?
Me and Jacob are most excellent. He is so good to me and adorable. He makes me smile, mucho mucho.
Its funny how the weather can change a mood. Its starting to get cold and I love, love, love the feeling it evokes. "Christmas is all around..." (what movie?)
I love you all. Halloween Horror Nights is almost upon us!
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| head over feet. |
[06 Sep 2006|10:52am] |
I AM ELATED!!!
I have fabulous friends, an amazing boyfriend, a wonderful family, a fantastic job, great classes at a gorgeous campus and my finicial aid just came through, so no more money worries.
I want to celebrate, hard core style. But work calls.
Tonight Project Runway Day and Quiche. Perfection.
I think they call it jogging, or yogging, apparently you just run for an extended period of time. Ahahahahahaha.
I cant wait until Halloween Horror Nights.
Happy early bday Gregers!!!!
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[26 Aug 2006|05:09pm] |
I offically have a boyfriend.
And yes it is the formally known "emo boy."
It was completly unexpected.
Once I let go of worrying why I liked him or what other people would think, I realized that for some reason unknown to me, I just geniuenly like him, in all his weird quirky ways. He makes me laugh and we have a good time together.
Our first official date date was Snakes on A Plane, hahaha.
Im sorry I havent been keeping everyone up to date on this. I have spent every night on the phone until 5 am talking to him and the hours just fade away. When we hang out it seems like its been 15 minutes when really a good few hours have gone by.
I am happy, really and truly.
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| i guess you are too sexy for regal cinemas, haha. |
[21 Aug 2006|02:05pm] |
So, last night as I was working box the two managers who I thought hated me came in to "chat." We started talking and laughing and then they started to ask whether or not I liked anyone or thought anyone was cute at regal. Now, Im thinking that they are talking about Jacob (emo boy) and that they are going to look down upon the fact that we are dating.
But they tell me that Joey has a crush on me. A mananger and emo boys best friend at work. Way to complicate things. Now Joey is older and shy and really into film and at least taller than me. They said that he never used to come downstairs and help concession until I started working there and that he never lets anyone borrow movies, but he let me borrow "V".
So now Im in a pickle, I told Jacob I wouldnt date anyone else and I really couldnt date his best friend but Joey seems more suited for me. Work will now be hella awkward. I just cant wait for the day when me, Joey and Jacob work together and sit in an awkward silence. Ohh geez, the things I get myself into.
But the only good thing is that I think I got my moms wedding off and I told Ashley that I quit Tropical Smoothie and now she is going to give me more hours, so I dont have to find another job. All is well, except that boy drama, but im sure it will work out, one way or another.
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| ohh lj, i have neglected you so. |
[20 Aug 2006|02:25pm] |
I am a really confused girl right now.
Have you ever liked someone and you really cant explain why?
Me and the formally known "emo boy" (guy from work), have been hanging out and for the past week, we have talked on the phone every night until about 5 am. Last night he came over and I guess we are now "dating."
I'm not sure why I like this kid and I think that maybe Ive been so concerned about what other people will say or think that I havent really talked about him in a good manner. This is something completely unexplainable and totally unexpected. Its just so weird and I dont know if it will work out. I just cant imagine introducing him to you guys, last night he said he wasnt good with friends. It's just so weird.
But im done taking things too seriously and I'm just going to go with the flow.
Sweet mary though, we have a new guy who is cutie mccutie kins and he is majoring in communications with an emphasis on film (!!!) and were taking the same class next semeseter. Ohh shooot, things at work just got hella confusing.
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[02 Aug 2006|11:56pm] |
I officially decided to keep two jobs.
Free smoothies and free movies, the best of both worlds.
Im actually just working a few hours a week at the movies, so I can keep my free movies and save for possibly going to Europe next summer. Tropical Smoothie says they will work with me.
I really like working at the movies. Sometimes I let one thing cloud my judgment. That one bitch manager is like that to everyone and I've made my peace with her. Ive actually met some pretty cool people and it was nice that people tried to convince me to stay when I contemplated leaving. Dont get me wrong, Im excited about starting Tropical Smoothie, Im just glad Im staying at the movies too. If two jobs is too much, I'll have a choice.
More later, Jennifers phone call calls....
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| i would rather loose, than to have never lain beside at all |
[26 Jul 2006|03:48pm] |
Its been pretty crazy busy up here in tally.
I am now officially employed at two places.
Im quiting the movie theater tomorrow and giving them a weeks notice. They scheduled me for close to 50 hours this week. Wiggety wack. I work tomorrow after school til close, friday after school til close, another double saturday, all day sunday for nine hours and then almost every night of the week after that and I have finals coming up. Sooooo, Im definately going to talk to them about it. But guess who makes the schedules? Thats right, the crazy manager who has nothing better to do with her time than to be hatin. Ohh well, i shall soon be just an employee of TROPICAL SMOOTHIE!!! I had my second interview and got hired yesterday and then had orientation today. There going to start me out when my schedule for the movies is over, so after this week of non-stop work and studying is over.
I cant wait for August 4th. School ends, movie ends and tropical smoothie begins!! Things are looking up. =)
Last night I hit up a birthday party of one of Jennys friends from school in a Kareoke bar.
It was a good time with really chillax people.
So work and school have basically devored my life and its summer!!
Im looking forward to my nice relaxing 3 week break.
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| I know i'm being mrs. emo mc-emo-son |
[24 Jul 2006|12:56pm] |
I have never been as consumed with a feeling of loneliness than I was last night.
Basically I worked all weekend. My roomates arent here, so I came home to a completly empty house.
Work sucks. One manager at the movies hates me for no reason, everyone says she is a complete bitch but that doesnt make it any better. I try to be nice to her but she continues to hate. She chewed me out Friday and honestly almost made me cry. Over fucking napkins. She is only two years older than me and on a complete power trip.
The guys are far too flirtious and touchy feeling, its all in good fun but still.
Borderline sexual harrassment is not cool.
I didnt see Jorge all weekend.
I guess as with all other guys he pulling out before anything even starts. I cant help but wonder what Im doing wrong.
I need to see everyone right now.
Im missing Melbourne for real for real.
Call me.
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| life or something like it. |
[21 Jul 2006|01:11pm] |
I have an interview at Tropical Smoothie in about an hour. Two jobs maybe?! New Job?!? We will have to see.
This weekend I work friday night, a double sat and all day sunday at the movies. I have about 40 hours this week total. Craziness.
I miss dance. I was talking to a guy from work about it because he recognized my shoes were dance shoes. He's right, I really need to start classes or look into it at school. But first, I strech.
Ohh and I need to find out about yoga at the gym on campus.
Im coming home!!!!!!!!
I saw the pictures of Jens party on facebook and got really excited about seeing all your lovely faces.
Im asking for August 14-18 off. County line is a must. I expect a full Melbourne experience of coffee shop visits by the beach and meeting at Office Max. Is everyone going to be in town??
Excitement!!!!!!
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| i am finally seeing, that i was the one worth leaving. |
[18 Jul 2006|11:54pm] |
Ohh lj, I have neglected you so.
So I might be working two jobs this time Friday. Today Tropical Smoothie called and I set up an interview on Friday at 3. Tropical Smoothie is literally 5 minutes from my house, so that would save a lot on gas monedas and if I get paid more I might just quit the movies. Either that or Im going to be working two jobs and going to school and trying to live it up. It should be interesting.
Me and Jen watched old movies last night with a huge c-roach. Good times, good times.
Things with Jorge have been moving along slowly but we talk every day and hang out a lot a lot. I feel like Ive known him a really long time and its been really nice.
There is a boy at school who Ive been talking to. He is adorable and awkward. He came up and introduced himself the other day, he wants to go to law school and he wears the best cologne.
Then there is a kid at work who keeps asking me out, I think it would be cool to be friends with him but I definately wouldnt take it farther.
Ohh boys, they slay me.
I finally got my tire fixed after driving on the spare for a few weeks. Jorge took me to a place where he knew a guy that fixed it for cheap. He was nice and he had the most adorable dog in the world. I miss Chloe so.
I miss you all and will hopefully have the weekend Im coming home planned out in the next few days. Much love from tally!
Homework calls.
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